I have been exploring fashion through art portraiture. In a way it’s about creating a grandiose mode of existing in the world. A lot of the women I draw look different but there is often this theme of constriction around their neck. Juxtaposed next to the constriction of neck (which to me seems to be more about inability to speak freely) is an abundant dose of freedom in the lines and the “clothing” the women wear. This incongruity is in many ways the inverse of what seems to happen in “real” fashion. Clothing in many ways lack this absolute sense of freedom but there tends to be less constriction in the ability to use one’s voice. In these portraits, I seem to be chasing this incongruity in myself: the need to speak but not being able to speak outside of the context of the clothes I wear.
I am interested in hearing what you all think about clothing in terms of how it constricts and speaks? Is there a difference in how you image fashion and the reality of what you have access to?
It wasn’t until I went to study abroad in Copenhagen that I realized how liberating it was to stop pretending. It was so empowering to see other people being honest about their feelings, whether it was about their joy, anger or sadness. It was there that I realized I was carrying a lot of feelings of sadness that I had not realized I contained. And the first time you learn to sit in feelings of sorrow, it is completely overwhelming and that is how I found colors. I realized that every time I felt sad I could dress in the complete opposite way and throughout the day, as I would catch the reflections of the different colors I was wearing I would feel better. Colors to me is not about repressing feelings of sadness or sorrow but rather it allowed me to better tolerate those feelings and tackle them from a vantage point is that is not solely tied to the feelings of darkness.
What is your relationship with colors? Leave a comment about your own perspective!